This week the topic I chose to write about is how my insecurities have often pushed me into crazy modes.
First, my main insecurity has always been to fail in whatever I am doing. That includes trying to lose weight, learning something new, doing the best I can at work, and so much more. So when I hit these insecurities, I sometimes go into a crazy mode.
Kevin (my husband) would be the first one to testify about my crazy mode. He laughs, because he knows that if I have something big going on that I am going to stress myself out by doing everything to make it great. He always dreads when I have something at the house. I keep our house fairly clean all the time, but when people are coming over I want to make sure I have touched every last space of our house. I know it's crazy. I know our house has to be lived in, but I like for it to be clean.
I am the same way when it goes to weight loss. When I decide that I am going to work on losing weight, I plan the extreme workouts. I do them for awhile, but there is no way I can keep them up.
My insecurity of failing causes me to work and work. However at some point, I always reach a breaking point in which I can't continue. I have been praying and working on finding a balance with everything so I don't reach a breaking point, because when I reach the point I feel like a complete failure. I know this is so not true, but this is just how it feels. Instead of trying to do everything, I am picking a couple of areas and concentrating on being successful with them.
Can you relate?
First, my main insecurity has always been to fail in whatever I am doing. That includes trying to lose weight, learning something new, doing the best I can at work, and so much more. So when I hit these insecurities, I sometimes go into a crazy mode.
Kevin (my husband) would be the first one to testify about my crazy mode. He laughs, because he knows that if I have something big going on that I am going to stress myself out by doing everything to make it great. He always dreads when I have something at the house. I keep our house fairly clean all the time, but when people are coming over I want to make sure I have touched every last space of our house. I know it's crazy. I know our house has to be lived in, but I like for it to be clean.
I am the same way when it goes to weight loss. When I decide that I am going to work on losing weight, I plan the extreme workouts. I do them for awhile, but there is no way I can keep them up.
My insecurity of failing causes me to work and work. However at some point, I always reach a breaking point in which I can't continue. I have been praying and working on finding a balance with everything so I don't reach a breaking point, because when I reach the point I feel like a complete failure. I know this is so not true, but this is just how it feels. Instead of trying to do everything, I am picking a couple of areas and concentrating on being successful with them.
Can you relate?
Elizabeth
