Crazy Mode Be Gone

I am joining again on an online Bible study through Proverbs 31 Ministries.  This study is based on Lysa TerKeurst's Made to Crave book.  They are having a blog hop each week to help women join together through the process.

This week the topic I chose to write about is how my insecurities have often pushed me into crazy modes.

First, my main insecurity has always been to fail in whatever I am doing.  That includes trying to lose weight, learning something new, doing the best I can at work, and so much more.  So when I hit these insecurities, I sometimes go into a crazy mode.

Kevin (my husband) would be the first one to testify about my crazy mode.  He laughs, because he knows that if I have something big going on that I am going to stress myself out by doing everything to make it great.  He always dreads when I have something at the house.  I keep our house fairly clean all the time, but when people are coming over I want to make sure I have touched every last space of our house.  I know it's crazy.  I know our house has to be lived in, but I like for it to be clean.

I am the same way when it goes to weight loss.  When I decide that I am going to work on losing weight, I plan the extreme workouts.  I do them for awhile, but there is no way I can keep them up.

My insecurity of failing causes me to work and work.  However at some point, I always reach a breaking point in which I can't continue.  I have been praying and working on finding a balance with everything so I don't reach a breaking point, because when I reach the point I feel like a complete failure.  I know this is so not true, but this is just how it feels.  Instead of trying to do everything, I am picking a couple of areas and concentrating on being successful with them.

Can you relate?

Elizabeth